Saya ingatkan
pagi ini akan menjadi pagi yang indah
seperti hari-hari sebelumnya :)
Tapi
pagi ini,
saya dibangunkan oleh Mummy.
She called me.
[
kerana saya tidak mau pgi
interview spa,
sya lupa pula yang parents sya
maw btul sya join tu interview.
sya tidak trfikir yang pagi nie
mummy call sya psal itu :P
]
time awal2 tuu, sya masih menjawab
mummy dengan suara mengantuk
trus... makin lama, makin serious pula sikit.
She told me to go for that interview
but my heart said i really don't wanna go.
(ok. i'm crying lagi :<)
Reasons is :
- i don't like the job(tidak berminat)
- my level of study is higher than the job
(i'm in degree level now,and it's my 2nd yr.but that job is in diploma level)
-
and believe my God prepared a beautiful future for me.
why do i have to worry if i don't get a job when i Graduated
i know sometimes i have financial problems.
Bapa will pension soon.
and i still have 2bro n a sister who are still in school.
selepas kena pujuk2, advice2, ceremah2 ... and many more.
i suddenly cried. my voice can't come out from my mouth.
i trus silent without answering my mummy.
then i juz said "yaa" and finished.
i didn't hang up the phone
i juz busy controlling my voice
i don't want my parents know that i'm crying that time.
i juz couldn't answer anymore. sya terus tdk terjawab mummy sy lagi
cukup la sy jawb "yaa", and thats mean i'll juz go!
i didn't prepare anything, i'll answer everything that interviewer ask.
sya masih akan buat dengan sungguh2 laa.. :D
whan i wanna hang up the phone, mummy already did.
so, i don't know anything after that.
maybe she smiled happily bcoz i will go.
and I
ended up crying until my eyes swelled. T.T
then. i ask Lord : outhoghe ?? (korean language)
sambil i cried, i pray laa to God.
It's really hard for being a human actually.. :)
But God makes in easier from time to time ...
God bless!
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