pagi ini akan menjadi pagi yang indah
seperti hari-hari sebelumnya :)
saya dibangunkan oleh Mummy.
She called me.
kerana saya tidak mau pgi
sya lupa pula yang parents sya
maw btul sya join tu interview.
sya tidak trfikir yang pagi nie
mummy call sya psal itu :P
time awal2 tuu, sya masih menjawab
mummy dengan suara mengantuk
trus... makin lama, makin serious pula sikit.
She told me to go for that interview
but my heart said i really don't wanna go.
(ok. i'm crying lagi :<)
Reasons is :
- i don't like the job(tidak berminat)
- my level of study is higher than the job
(i'm in degree level now,and it's my 2nd yr.but that job is in diploma level)
and believe my God prepared a beautiful future for me.
why do i have to worry if i don't get a job when i Graduated
i know sometimes i have financial problems.
Bapa will pension soon.
and i still have 2bro n a sister who are still in school.
selepas kena pujuk2, advice2, ceremah2 ... and many more.
i suddenly cried. my voice can't come out from my mouth.
i trus silent without answering my mummy.
then i juz said "yaa" and finished.
i didn't hang up the phone
i juz busy controlling my voice
i don't want my parents know that i'm crying that time.
i juz couldn't answer anymore. sya terus tdk terjawab mummy sy lagi
cukup la sy jawb "yaa", and thats mean i'll juz go!
i didn't prepare anything, i'll answer everything that interviewer ask.
sya masih akan buat dengan sungguh2 laa.. :D
whan i wanna hang up the phone, mummy already did.
so, i don't know anything after that.
maybe she smiled happily bcoz i will go.
ended up crying until my eyes swelled. T.T
then. i ask Lord : outhoghe ?? (korean language)
sambil i cried, i pray laa to God.
It's really hard for being a human actually.. :)
But God makes in easier from time to time ...