to respect and obey her parents.

Today..

She has decided to respect and obey her parents.

Efesus 6:1-3

"Hai anak-anak, taatilah orang tua mu di dalam Tuhan, karena haruslah demikian. Hormatilah ayahmu dan ibumu- ini adalah suatu perintah yang penting, seperti yang nyata dari janji ini: supaya kamu berbahagia dan panjang umurmu di bumi."

I'm Confused

Saya ingatkan


pagi ini akan menjadi pagi yang indah


seperti hari-hari sebelumnya :)


Tapi


pagi ini,


saya dibangunkan oleh Mummy.


She called me.


[
     kerana saya tidak mau pgi
     interview spa,
     sya lupa pula yang parents sya
     maw btul sya join tu interview.
     sya tidak trfikir yang pagi nie
     mummy call sya psal itu :P
]


time awal2 tuu, sya masih menjawab


mummy dengan suara mengantuk


trus... makin lama, makin serious pula sikit.


She told me to go for that interview


but my heart said i really don't wanna go.
(ok. i'm crying lagi :<)


Reasons is :
                  - i don't like the job(tidak berminat)
                  - my level of study is higher than the job
                    (i'm in degree level now,and it's my 2nd yr.but that job is in diploma level)
                  - 
and believe my God prepared a beautiful future for me.


why do i have to worry if i don't get a job when i Graduated


i know sometimes i have financial problems.


Bapa will pension soon.


and i still have 2bro n a sister who are still in school.


selepas kena pujuk2, advice2, ceremah2 ... and many more.


i suddenly cried. my voice can't come out from my mouth.


i trus silent without answering my mummy.


then i juz said "yaa" and finished.


i didn't hang up the phone


i juz busy controlling my voice


i don't want my parents know that i'm crying that time.


i juz couldn't answer anymore. sya terus tdk terjawab mummy sy lagi


cukup la sy jawb "yaa", and thats mean i'll juz go!


i didn't prepare anything, i'll answer everything that interviewer ask.


sya masih akan buat dengan sungguh2 laa.. :D


whan i wanna hang up the phone, mummy already did.


so, i don't know anything after that.


maybe she smiled happily bcoz i will go.


and I


ended up crying until my eyes swelled. T.T


then. i ask Lord : outhoghe ?? (korean language)


sambil i cried, i pray laa to God.


It's really hard for being a human actually.. :)


But God makes in easier from time to time ...


God bless! 

Hati ini rumah Mu

Ku jadikan hati ini
'tuk kediaman Mu
Ku serahkan hidup ini
Untuk Mu Allah ku


Di hati inilah rumah Mu
Di hati inilah bait Mu
Di manapun ku 'kan berada
Senantiasa 
Kau pun ada

to wait for you, Lord.

Today, I decided to wait for the, Lord.
Doakan saya agar terus setia dalam melayani Tuhan.
Senantiasa bersama Tuhan hingga akhir waktu.
Menyertai dan melakukan segala yang di perintahkan oleh Tuhan untuk saya.
Begitu juga dengan kamu :)

Psalm 27:14